Hectic - OSITY

WOW, so if you have been keeping up with my blog you can see there is a wide array of men that I have "options" from. And a lot of things that been blowing up lately. And get this ... I was right to keep my guard up on Keith, he is a douchebag. He tried to hook up with my friend the night that I got home from being with him, he hasn't called, he hasn't messeged me he hasn't anything ... so I guess I just got good sex out of him. And that sucks because I really have not had sex with anyone that I did not have a relationship with till recently. And I haven't really felt good about myself about Jo and Keith because I feel like I have done something that I not necessarily did not want to but with people that I did not love or feel so connected with. Keith made me feel amazing, and I really hoped he was serious but I knew in the back of my mind he wouldn't be what I wanted or that he wasn't I just did not know. And I was right. That is fine though, I learned from it and I will watch out from now on. So moving on.

At the same time I was talking to Keith I met another guy named Ed, he was handsome ... funny ... you know a lot of those things everyone notices. But he never talked sexually to me, he always said I was beautiful and not hot. He really sparked my interest. He is educated, but had a rough background, he can do about anything really ... like me. And I like that. He can work on cars, do math, write well, have a good conversation ... and all that it was very nice. I couldn't wait to talk to him when he got on and I would spend hours just chatting. So I called him. And he has a voice that shot straight to my heart. Deep, refined ... wow!! I just loved it and I told him. So last night I decided to meet him. Actually very early in the morning. I met him with my friend and she dropped me off. He drives a standard, and it has an amazing stereo system in it. I asked him about it he told me he used to build systems for shows and competitions and stuff. He and I talked and he just lit up my face. Which is not easy to do. I am a very straight face person. And he just made me smile. And he got my sense of humor and had it too. Let me first put not one person I have met, friend or foe has got my humor and returned it at me. I was so damn excited over that. If nothing else came of it then I at least had like a new best friend. Haha. So we headed back to his place, and were watching movies. We clicked. I felt like I had known him for years and that we had dated for years ... it was crazy. I did not know what that was about. And then he looked me in the eyes and said what I had been thinking. "You know it feels like I have known you ALL of my life, and that we have dated for four or five years, I have never been so comfortable with a person. Not even my ex fiance. Which is crazy cause that was 3 years of my life I knew her." (Yes I knew about that incident in advance, they dated over 3 years and then she just started ripping his heart out and trying to hurt him and break his confidence. Because she cheated on him.) And I felt something in me. I had to ask myself what it was, and I did not believe my answer.